i'm sooooooo off

i'm very upset and feeling very down. no one cares about me at all or gives me any attention. and always when i have problems there is no one to talk with. i hate this. it makes me so mad. even J is not spending time with me and says he is too busy with work these days... varah foohi vey.... i even really badly wanted to go and check out the belly rings at escape shop,,, but it seem like i have to go all by myself...i'm going crazy sitting at home looking at the walls....i am mad....i think i'm going to go for a walk all by myself, just walking the streets of male'. no one would even notice me... i am a nothing.......