kihinethow gals and dudes.....

i guess i owe ya'll a huge apology..... i'm sorry so sorry for not writin on this blog for soooooo loooong. did y'all miss moi ;)? hama aslu i lurrved this bloggy but many things happened in ma life.... i fell into a black black darkness.. but now i'm in da light.... and lil ol' me is bak againnn.

to make a longgg story short... i got married to j... he turned vahabee... he forced me to wear burugaa...even internt was haraam.... i thought i was happy....i thought he did reallyy love me....it was so darkkk so dark inside. i was living in one of the dark rooms upstairs in his house, i did not see anything or anyone else for so long... i cudnt even tlk to ma darlin bro... i also thought that wearing burugaa was the good way... but it felt more and more like i was livin a big lie.

Many things happened during that time... my xhubby's friends were not very good.... i dont know if i should write all about this.. if i feel like writing i will write. i'm certain that Allah is forgiving if i do anything wrong. but it was soo dark... then he left me.... i may not post this but i am just writing this on my bro's comp..... i need help. evry1 is angry after i took de black burugaa off and started wearin my usual clothes... i know tht wot they are doing is not right i have been there and felt it....evry1 luks at me lyke i'm some1 who is livin in sin... it really suxxxx....

i was a very happy gal.. ekamaku hope to be back to happiness again... i'm sorry to bother ya'll with this post...but tnx... i'll try to write about it more.... ma best frend told me it would be good for me if i blogged about these frustratn thingies.

now i'm gonna go get some fresh air and btw i still lurv butterfliesss.... :) *long live*