kihinethow gals and dudes.....

i guess i owe ya'll a huge apology..... i'm sorry so sorry for not writin on this blog for soooooo loooong. did y'all miss moi ;)? hama aslu i lurrved this bloggy but many things happened in ma life.... i fell into a black black darkness.. but now i'm in da light.... and lil ol' me is bak againnn.

to make a longgg story short... i got married to j... he turned vahabee... he forced me to wear burugaa...even internt was haraam.... i thought i was happy....i thought he did reallyy love me....it was so darkkk so dark inside. i was living in one of the dark rooms upstairs in his house, i did not see anything or anyone else for so long... i cudnt even tlk to ma darlin bro... i also thought that wearing burugaa was the good way... but it felt more and more like i was livin a big lie.

Many things happened during that time... my xhubby's friends were not very good.... i dont know if i should write all about this.. if i feel like writing i will write. i'm certain that Allah is forgiving if i do anything wrong. but it was soo dark... then he left me.... i may not post this but i am just writing this on my bro's comp..... i need help. evry1 is angry after i took de black burugaa off and started wearin my usual clothes... i know tht wot they are doing is not right i have been there and felt it....evry1 luks at me lyke i'm some1 who is livin in sin... it really suxxxx....

i was a very happy gal.. ekamaku hope to be back to happiness again... i'm sorry to bother ya'll with this post...but tnx... i'll try to write about it more.... ma best frend told me it would be good for me if i blogged about these frustratn thingies.

now i'm gonna go get some fresh air and btw i still lurv butterfliesss.... :) *long live*

happy new year to all of you!

hmmm, lets see..., it's been so many days i have been away from the net...', my friends wedding went very nice... lots and lots of funnnn and we also decorated their honeymoon room as a surprizzze for the.... they were sooo lovely...

anyway, the past few days have beeen hectic.. there was some problems with my brothers computer cconnected to the internet.... he says that focus net is worthless to use.... and many problems with it.. so he has switched to dhiraagu which also has as many problems.... i wish there's some more choices... if i go out to buy a bottle of perfume i have the same problem,, last night i went to lecute, the place looks lovely, even the people are very nice,, but things are so expensive and i could not find what i liked.... anyway cheeers for now..

weddingggg bells

I have been toooo busy these days preparing for one of my closest friend's wedding. she is sooo young and marrying already too soon. i am happy for her :). but i will not even think of marrying yet, i need to enjoy my life first.. like a butterfly flying freely...

i am helping her making the envelopes for the card.. she choose a very pinky card.. they are getting the cards printed from bangkok. it's so sweet. but the envelope making is so much fun.... all the friends of ours from aminaya are back together..

there's still a lot of things to do... like choosing a wedding cake.. already she has chosen the wedding dress... a very prettty white dresss she looks like julia roberts in it.. all of us are wearing pink, all the boys blue... J is helping them paint the background they stand infront of in the party... j is sometimes very gooddd.... thats why i love him... i dunno if i would marry him or not.... now i have to go and make an appointment with shery to start looking prettyier than her for the wedding lol...

i'm sooooooo off

i'm very upset and feeling very down. no one cares about me at all or gives me any attention. and always when i have problems there is no one to talk with. i hate this. it makes me so mad. even J is not spending time with me and says he is too busy with work these days... varah foohi vey.... i even really badly wanted to go and check out the belly rings at escape shop,,, but it seem like i have to go all by myself...i'm going crazy sitting at home looking at the walls....i am mad....i think i'm going to go for a walk all by myself, just walking the streets of male'. no one would even notice me... i am a nothing.......

butterfly on my belly!!!!!!!

ta daaaaaa.............i got my belly button pierced!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! i've always like them, but i was always too afraid to get it dun..... but i came across this totally adorable pink gem-studded butterfly and i just had to have it....and the only way was to get myself pierced....a nice frend did it 4 me with a needle..thanks shaxu you are the best!!!! i just have a plain ring right now, but in a few months i can change it.....can't wait!!!!!!
my belly button is really tiny..and its sorta half in n half out...from a metre away it looks like an innie..but its not that deep.....i've read on the internet that sometimes the ring just falls off by itself!!....hoping that doesnt happen....ugh....now wondering on how to clean it......anywayzzzz it hurts like hell and feels abit sore.. my mom loved it, but i wont tell daddy about this, he'll kill me if he finds out.... but it looks lurrrvlyyyy so i'm grining....

night out

tonight i went shopping with my best friend. she showed me a very pretty dress in cinderella, which i wanted to buy immediately. it was cool. If you've ever seen me wearing something that makes you think "hey that looks good on her" it likely came from my best friend. as i was about to buy the dress i saw another with the same design. aaarggg it makes me sick to see others wearing what i wear.i did not buy it, instead went to pizzeria for a coffee. it was cool until it started to rain!!! aargg it seems like this is my unlucky night out. varah foohivey... i cant seem to enjoy this. but it was cool in a way, my best friend and i had a good time talking about fashion.

butterfly crazeee

i guess you guyz and galz must be wondering about my luv for butterflies....well i just lurrrve butterflies, they are just so cute: crazy colored butterflies · delightful butterflies · simple butterflies · small fluttering butterflies · sparkling bright butterflies. the way they fly from flower to flower sucking nectar. hmmm, how i wish i was one of them and i can only dream.
my previous obsession was with sunflowers. i had sunflower everything!!! bedsheets, mug, loads of t-shirts, curtains, hair clips, you name it and i had a sunflower one of that.
j says i have a compulsive nature. i dunno.... think he's right? *snicker*
i wish i had some butterfly jewelery from here or there.